Nope. Same ol' Same ol'... You?

I guess nothing has really transpired in my life in the past 18 months as I haven't felt compelled to post anything new...      Certainly starting a new job, my daughter starting REAL-school-having-homework-every-night, her graduating from Kindergarten, falling in love, breaking up, meeting new people, having fun, trying to forget, forging new friendships, ending other friendships... well, apparently none of that inspired me to post.   (on anyplace other than late-night text or Facebook, to be clear)

I suppose I've been too busy with my life to realize how impossibly fast time has passed since my last post.  

Remember when we were younger and summers seemed to last forever?  I remember when the duration from the last day of school in June to the first day of school in September seemed like a lifetime...  I thought of it terms of "months" and not "weeks" as I do now...

And I have become the person of age that now drones on and on about how time is moving so much faster now that I'm old...  The very same person at which I would have rolled my eyes at back in the day.  BUT IT'S TRUE!! I swear...  time is just slipping through my fingers and I just know I'm not looking any better while it happens.  Not a lick.  Impossible!  Facial salves and ointments be damned...

So Charlotte is starting first*fucking*grade in a couple of weeks and I'm trying to sort out how I feel about it all.      I'm certainly not pining away for a time that she was soiling diapers but at the same time, I am realizing that while I realized there was no going back to that time NOW I am realizing that the time ahead is so much more complicated than the time spent changing her diapers.

Enter moody teachers, mean girls, mean girls' parents and homework...
Enter crushes and boyfriends (or girlfriends) and dances...

And all of that is her burden really... I mean, certainly mine... but hers to deal with it when she ventures out of my house...  (Not to mention her father's house of which  I know almost nothing about)    I so wish I could fight her battles for her but I also realize this is what I am supposed to be preparing her for...     A big deal for such a little girl.

So.. I guess we start again from here...

Nope.. nothing going on here...